Welcome to my korner of the world, with big bay windows. I like to let the sun shine in and warm me, so that I can be inspired. With that inspiration of warmth, I can create a better me, and hopefully touch other lives for the better. And together perhaps we can piece together a better, more positive world.

Thursday, April 14, 2011

Life Patterns

It has been a very busy time the last couple of weeks, and at times I just wanted to curl up and sleep away days at a time.  I thought wake me when the pain stops, or, wake me when things are going more smoothly.  Old habits rear their ugly heads in such a comforting manor, that you don't often realize you are back in the grips of them. 

I don't really want to stay in that place though, so I have been crocheting, and learning new techniques and patterns.  Some are easy to get right away, and others take lots of practice, sometimes have to start over again several times.  I'm making granny squares right now, and it can be frustrating when I miss a stitch, or change stitches in the middle of the row, or don't understand the pattern.  But I am learning, and learning takes time, and sometimes it takes a toll on the mind.

 I've also been reading a powerful book. It will take me a long time to read through it, but will be well worth the time of contemplating and meditating on the information.  The book is by Eckhert Tolle, called The Power of Now.  I'm learning so much already, and only just finished chapter two last night.  Changing thought patterns is much like learning a new crochet pattern.  Often I  have to rip out rows or entire projects, may have to re-stitch several times, and then I can see the beauty as it begins taking the shape and pattern I want.

The granny squares I am making are twelve inches, and I am putting them together to make lap blankets for the Veterans in the home in Tor C, NM.  All the squares are unique in color and pattern.  It takes time, effort, and a commitment to complete such a project, but I am finding it fun as well.  I see just how much time it takes to make a better me as well. 

We are all unique, have our own patterns.  Do you want to stay the same pattern for the rest of your life? Or is it time to try a new color, a new stitch, an entirely new idea?  Who are you now, who do you want to be ultimately? 

Personally, I want to be the best, colorful, unique piece of work that I can be!  It means I am in the processing of ripping out the hurts and pains I have carried for years, of letting go of the ugly patterns, and creating an entirely new, happy, cheerful, giving, supportive, loving ME!  It will take time to stitch myself together, but with a little bit of effort, and changes in hooks, it will happen. It is a daily choice, a daily decession to make the right choice, to look at life a bit differently.  Sometimes I even have to make that choice every other minute. 

What about you?  Who are you today? What pattern are you working on? Is it becoming more beautiful with every thought and stitch, or is it routine, old, boring, stagnant?  What pleasure are you getting from the old patterns? Or is it time to start something new, exciting, and a bit challenging? 

Here is to a new day, a new pattern, and new choices, all for the good in life!

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

My Crazy, Wild, Love Story

Odd things happen in my life.  I have some very strange stories to tell.  The best story I have is of how I met my husband and how we know we are meant to be together!

In 2005 I decided it was time for my life to have some major changes. It certainly was not easy, but it was a must for my sanity.  I will skip over all the yuck part here, but I do need to say that I was married, and needed to get out of it. I left him, and went through several months of angst,  changes, and divorce. All for what made me a much stronger person.

In July of 2006, I signed up on MySpace.  I received emails from several people, but one caught me a bit off guard with the simplicity of his email. We started emailing back and forth, and one of my first questions was where in our small town did he live. I made an off-hand comment of "watch, I can see your house from mine".  When he told me where he lived, I truly could see his roof from my kitchen window. 

We finally decided to meet in person, and the night before we were to meet, he called me from the hospital. He had been in a motorcycle accident, bike was totaled, his right leg injured, and we wouldn't be able to meet.  We met on Tuesday, July 25th.  We realized then that we had passed each other in the local grocery store and smiled at each other. (I remember it vividly! Thought I could get used to that smile every day!)

He helped me move a couple weeks later.  Twelve days after I moved into my new place, I was at work, and about 1:40 pm on August 24th, a Ford SUV came crashing through the front window of my work. I was pinned between the desk and the metal shelving unit behind me. I was flown to the local trauma hospital, as I couldn't move my leg.  This wonderful man I had met just a month before, came to the hospital.  He took me to his home, as I had a hairline fracture in my hip.  He took such good care of me.  It was at this point I knew he was a keeper!!!!

Ready for the crazy part of the story?  One week after my accident, mind you it was 32 days after his accident, there was a story in the local paper. That is when we realized it was the same woman who hit us both! In the same Ford SUV.  The accidents were 3 1/2 miles apart,  on bright sunshiny days. She got his right leg, and my left.  We both have injuries that will be with us our entire lives from the accidents.

The best part of this story is that fact is definitely stranger than fiction.  No one believes it really happened that way, but we have the police reports to prove it.  Our love is strong, and we are so perfect for one another.  He supports me in so many ways, and I know that he appreciates the love I have for him.  Our love has been crafted together beyond what either of us could have believed.